Loss

Mom,

Happy Mother's Day. I can't even begin to imagine the pain that this holiday will cause you. I don't blame you for getting away and wanting to be out of town. I wish that you could talk to your Mom one last time. I wish I could take away your pain.

Your loss reminds me how thankful I am for everyday that I have with you.

I love you!

Love,
Me

Right Now

Leave it to me to find a great guy that likes to do the same activities I do, that is funny, attractive, and a real sweetie...only one problem, he is going through one of the toughest times in his life.

How can he deal with the death of a life vision and still want to hang out with a new girl? Am I doing more harm to him than good? What happens when he wakes up and realizes that he was not being true to himself, but just trying to fill a space? I know that day will come.

Oh well...life is about the journey, not the end destination. So I choose to live in the "right now". Right now I like spending time with him; I like hiking, sailing, playing with the dogs, talking, watching movies, etc... Right now I am not disillusioned that "right now" might end in the very next moment. I will understand 100% when that next moment comes. I will send him on his way with a friendly smile and try to think about what to do in my next moment.